I had spent a good hour writing about my stress and anxiety and all the crap that's been on my mind and me being on over load and I erased it all. Not on purpose trust me. It's late I'm tired I have this stupid head cold, can't sleep. This entire week I've had insomnia and I have no idea how that started. I guess it's from being so anxious all the time. About what? About everything and nothing I guess. I just realized that I don't open up to people, this is going to sound mean, but it's what I feel and it drives me crazy. People giving me there two cents. Don't want it and I don't care about your opinion about me. I don't need to be distracted more then I already am. I have a hard time focusing as it is. I don't need to know that someone thinks I'm to shy or I don't stand up strait enough or I left something out of what I was doing, whatever it my be. I cant take it. It makes me sick literally, I'm always getting sick because I don't open up and tell people to shut it. I've had to compromise my whole life and I've had enough. I'm not gonna go postal, it's not my style. I do have all this negative emotion from childhood it was no cake walk being raised by a single parent. That alone can screw with a kids head. My mom did what she could and I thank her for that. I need to stop my rant, I'll just stop it here.
Oh yeah one more thing, don't comment on this, if you ask your self why? read this again.
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